Dahon.

guilt is a buzzkill.

stop it tanz. stop thinking about it. stop continually blaming yourself for everything. let it go. don't be too hard on yourself.
but i can't. i can't. its the way i was built. its how my mind works.
then change how your mind works.
but that's how my f*cking mind works...
doesn't mean that you can't change it, you bludgering idiot. you don't even want to try.
yeah i do want to try... but i give up easily.
then don't give up easily.
easy for you to say.
easy for me?! idiot... do you even realize that you're having a conversation with yourself right now?! i am you... silly girl!
oh shit! you're me and i'm you?! damn... i've crossed the line.
no you haven't. you just need to talk.
i do?! i talk...
no you don't. not about the important stuff.
but what is important anyway?
do you really want to broadcast it?!
not really... i should keep this vague.
good girl!
good girl?!?!?! noooooo... i'm not. and that's the sad part.
yes you are.
no i'm not.
stop it! ok fine... you're like... borderline good girl/bad girl.
oh my God! you are so baduy!
do i really have to tell you who i am again?!
oh... oh yeah. i'm baduy. yeah.
ok. good. now that that's all cleared up. let's go back to the subject.
huh?! what subject?!
Gadamit!!! even you're conversations with yourself are malabo.
i know.

Get Born!

i'm sure you're hoping waiting wishing for the aging process to suddenly just stop for you... but sadly, no. i can see that you're aging. you are old. hahaha! or rather older... but i love you nonetheless!! happy birthday pi-bop! :D

(anyway... i'm just kidding! you look like a million bucks!)

pairalin ang kabaduyan.

hahaha! we had our hair cut by the same stylist... :P can you see the similarity? probably not.. but whatever! it's our second time to look like an anime couple... not that it was intentional. i guess those are just the types of hairstyles that toni & guy does... whatever! their okay haircuts... but i still wish i had the other stylist, the one i had the last hair cut with, do my hair. she would've made it even more fabulous. and tats thinks that richard, his stylist, would've done a better job. But no use thinking about it now...

i want chocosnaps... i'm bored... where are my glasses?! hrmmm... i want to learn how to properly set my camera for second curtain flashing thingies... ahhh... and louis is a pixelpeeper. hahaha!

rubadub at corik's.

photo frenzy... here are a few of my fave photos from that night. the others i posted on my multiply. because flickr is such a bee-atch.

neglected.

hindi ko naman sinasadya na gawin yun sayo. ni hindi ko nga masyado namalayan na ganon na pala ang lagay. hindi na ako studiante o di kaya isang tinatawag na "bum" para makatambay lang kasama mo palagi. nakahanap na ako ng trabaho... at yung trabaho na yun kinakain ang oras ko... ang oras na sana naibigay ko sayo. at kung hindi man trabaho... kailangan ko pa hintayin si ma at pa para maka-uwi... kasi totoo... tamad ako mag-commute. isipin mo naman. ang dami dami kong bag na bitbit araw araw... hindi ko kayang kargahin sa FX-MRT-Jeep yun... mabigat na... nakaka-takot pang manakawan. maarte na kung maarte, pero ganon talaga ako. pero wag ka mag-alala... ngayon nalaman ko na ang kondisyon mo at mga nararamdaman mo tungo sa akin... gagawa talaga ako ng paraan para makasama ka. mabigyan ka ng tinatawag na "quality time". alam ko naman na ang dami ko nang utang sayo... hindi ko na nagagawa yung mga ginagawa ko kasama mo noon. na tumambay lang at tumanga sa harap ng TV... habang hinahawak hawakan ang buhok mo... kinikiliti-kiliti ka sa tiyan... at ang tabihan ka pag matutulog ka na. wag ka mag-alala... aayusin natin toh... siguro kinailangan lang na gisingin ako sa ganitong klaseng katotohanan... na nakakaramdam ka pala ng ganong klasing mga emosyon... kasi eh! sana sinabi mo nalang... para naayos natin ito ng maaga... para hindi na tayo umabot sa ganito... wag ka na kasi ma-depress... mahal naman kita eh... sobra! hindi ko talaga sinasadya...
pramis... mahal kita... kung pwede ko lang ibalik ang dati chewy...


(my mom called me... she brought chewy to the vet because he's been having some skin problems... the vet said that he's depressed... and that the owner a.k.a me, probably had been neglecting him. i feel really really bad. anak ko yun eh...)

tribe.

captions?! nah.....

lomo-fying adformatix.

took photos of my officemates. then i used a PS script to make them look like lomo photographs. coolness! (at least i think so.)



i posted the other photos here.

trying stuff out.

i got a new camera. hurray! been dreaming about it for quite some time. i'm so in love, i swear! :D
anyway. its been too long since i last posted stuff... i thought i'd post some portraits i took. at least my favorite ones.




the others i posted at my multiply account. hihihi!